Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Ok, I went to my appt today. I was open to hearing bad news if I needed to hear it. And the dr did an exam and I go in for a sonogram in three weeks (to make sure things look ok inside), but I was shocked at what she told me and what our next course of action is. I am now officially on progesterone pills and for the next three months Scott and I will officially be "trying" really hard for a baby. Yes, I'm on Clomid...the med that will make me ovulate. I don't know if the dr is looking at the future and seeing that I need to do all that I can now, but she was the one who brought up clomid and all that today. I was just like, whoa, I can't believe that I went in to the dr's office thinking the worst and it came out like this. Now, this doesn't mean that the meds will for sure work, but I'm willing to try them if the dr thinks they are worth trying. The progesterone pills are to help me have enough progesterone to keep a pregnancy and of course the others are to help me get pg. I'm excited to be trying again, but I'm scared too. I don't want to get my hopes up, but at the same time I want to remember that God can do anything. We are not telling Martie at this time, because she wants a little brother or sister so bad that she will get her hopes up and then will be crushed if nothing happens. I don't know if I should even be blogging about this, maybe I'm jinxing myself...but then again....I shouldn't even be believing in superstitions. God is bigger than that. God works in His own way and above superstitions and luck. Anyway, I guess we'll see how the summer goes and what happens. Trust me, I'll be sharing fears and doubts along the way...and if anything happens the blog will be one of the first places I'll go (after announcing it to family and friends of course). Keep praying....but pray that God's will is done in the situation. God bless.